Today was a Good Day

Today was a good day for me.

Not in the ‘I was happy and loved so it was a good day’ kind of way. In the ‘I actually got a lot done’ today kind of way.

If you have anxiety and depression, or other things that impact your motivation levels, you can really understand that statement.

Some days, just getting out a bed and going to work is the only task you feel like you can accomplish, and that one is difficult. Other days, you feel like you can do anything and everything all at once.

Today was the second type of day. I did ALL of the things. For hours, I was busy. Shopping errands, cleaning, organizing, laundry. All of it got done today. I was able to do so many things that I have been putting off for weeks. Things I have stressed over and worried about and dreaded. Things that have just felt entirely too overwhelming to do one at a time, let alone all in one day.

If you are like me, you know what I mean. Most days, I can get myself out of bed and go to work. But that’s honestly where my motivation and my strength end. I can’t clean, can’t organize. Can’t bring myself to get up off the couch. Every time I look around and think about everything that needs to be done, I just want to curl in a ball and watch tv, or play on my phone, or read.

If you are not like me, this may seem like I am lazy or like I am in some deep depression. I’m honestly neither of those things. My brain is just not equipped to deal with everything all at once.

So today I decided that I need to start taking things in baby steps on my low-motivation days. The days where I feel good and I want to do things and I am ready to do them, I will do all the things. The days where I don’t feel that way, I will not. I will take baby steps and do small tasks.

Everything will get done, and it will be there when I am ready to do it.